I don’t feel like I’m getting the creative time i used to get when i was freelance. Well, i know i’m not.
Don’t worry, this is not me thinking of jacking in my job here at Tandem. God put me here and i’m not getting any vibes that he wants me elsewhere for the time being. What is happening is that i am getting quite fed up with the processes one has to put up with in a small production company. This has become quite tiresome and i’m beginning to fear for my creative abilities.
The creative mind is much like a muscle. If you don’t exercise it it will grow weak and less productive. When you do use it it will be a real effort to get anywhere. I use this analogy cause I’m also really unfit! I need to get in to some routines where I can get on my bike. Last few times i was out, i was left out of breath alot and it wasn’t as enjoyable as it used to be. I’m finding the same result with being creative.
At work my job is still very creative. Its just that it’s also very constrained. Constraints and creativity don’t get along very well. Within the corporate environment the constraints are mainly budget and time.
Budgets don’t usually allow for very adventurous things
Time is usually too tight to have any fun with ideas.
I feel like i’m completely done!
This is not what it should be and I think i need to go back to one of my original functions here at Tandem. That function was to bring a fresh perspective to the company. We need to go back to the roots of why we do this. I remember when i was freelancing with my bro. It was obviously very different for us as we didn’t have as many overheads so we were alot more free to try things but we did try things. I remember we used to sit and talk about ideas and when we realised we couldn’t afford to do something we would work out a way of doing so….it was great!
I want us to do this at Tandem. I need for us to smash out of this oppressive feeling we’re under and start being creative! REALLY CREATIVE. We need to be completely bonkers creative, think of the ludicrous, the obscene, the stupid, the funny, the outrageous, the bizarre and even the un-related!
WE NEED TO THINK!
I’ve been thinking of all this stuff and what it all mans and trying to hear what God has to say about all of this. One of the cool things coming up is the iamsecond project. We will be doing the production on the UK version of this which is really awesome and a real answer to prayer. I’ve been praying that we get some new Christian projects and this landed in my lap in a way that could only have been from the Big Man.
This has had me thinking and praying more about where God is taking me. I’m seeing people serving Jesus full time and I’m so envious. There is a large part of me that just cannot be faffed with doing corporate work as I find it really difficult to see how a film on a tunnel or the construction of a building can further the Kingdom. I would love to be able to work full time on films that directly further the kingdom.
I pray that this feeling will go and I’ll be able to get my creative mojo back!