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Sancho Panza

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The Sancho Guys wanted a reel to pitch a deal with Ministry of Sound and MTV

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I asked Ruth to marry me!

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Wow – I’m engaged. This all happened yesterday and after much planning I pulled off what everyone has been telling me was a very immpressive proposal. The video will  be comming soon.

WOW – I’m getting hitched!

Not lazy, just diffrent

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I really am going through a long sting of not writing much on this here website! I noticed that mostrly this site is full of rants and moaning. I guess i just dont have much to rant about these days and far less to moan about. But its sad to think that all i have to offer the world are my moanings and rantings!

 Why is it so much easier to rant rather than be grateful and full of praise?

 The last year has been so good. Life is Good.

why did i ever smoke in the first place?

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So it’s almost 4am as i write this. I’m up late doin a thing for Tesco. But Tesco is not what i wanna talk about.

No. Its smoking.

Back in May I quit smoking. Cold Turkey! No patches gum inhilators or any aides what so ever. I just went for it with sheer will power! It was really tough. There had been times when i really really wanted to have a smoke but I resisted the urge time and time again but I never gave in. The attitude i took was: i was not a smoker giving up but i was no longer a smoker! FULL STOP!!!! This was key. I had to convince myself of this otherwise I would have crumbled.

A couple of years ago i almost quit. I lasted about 2 months before one day i had a really crappie day. I was stressed out, angry and work was really tough and i cracked. This time round has had many similar days. Still I have resisted. There were a few other things i did this time round that were diffrent to the last time.

Firstly I am now living in a non smoking house. For the forst couple of months here i still smoked but it meant going outside for one eachtime so it resulted in me cutting down severly before the plundge. I had been a chain smoker in my old place, smoking while working at my desk. I probably smoked about 30 a day. A non smoking home helped.

Second I got rid of almost all my smoking paraphernalia. cigarettes, lighters, matchbooks, ashtrays, rolling papers – the lot.

Thirdly (this is why i said “almost” in the second point) I kept one cigarette as a temptation. Knowing it was there, knowing that i could have that ciggie if i wanted it was a real challenge but it was a battle of will that was made harder but more thorough as a result.

While waiting for a render to finish i decided to smoke that last ciggie. Now I must stress that I had no urdge or craving. I was not feeling stressed or down or sad. There was no motivation behind it driven by a desire to smoke. I wanted to see if it brought back any cravings or too see if i would enjoy it like i remembered it. There was a part of me that was quite wary of doing this – fearful that it would take me back undoing all the work id put in to no smoking -it didnt.

For the life of me i really dont know what i liked about smoking. It was disgusting! It was really really awful. I couldnt finish the thing. When i finished it i went straight to the bathroom to brush my teeth, use a loadf of mouth wash and get the smell off my fingers and face. Even now I can still smell slight remenants of it. It really was disgusting. The tase was nasty. How could i have ever enjoyed it like i had done in the past. This exercise has helped me realise that i never ever want to smoke ever again.

Besides – I can now run down the street without wanting to cough up a lung!

Let me leave you with this:

the web: its great!

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So over the past two days i’ve been finding a shed load of old school friends on Facebook! I havent seen alot of these guys in 10 years! Its so cool to hear from them again.

I got a free 19″ monitor today from freecycle! How cool is the web!