If you’ve been following my statuses over the past couple of weeks you will have seen that my head has been all over the shop. In any new job this is to be expected but I just didn’t expect it to happen so soon and to the degree that it has.
My first few days here at Tearfund were overshadowed by a common theme; INFORMATION OVERLOAD. Going from a small production company to a big company like Tearfund has been a little overwhelming. There are soooo many abbreviations, processes, systems and people!!! Yeah People! I’m not used to this many people around me! This is not a bad thing though! It’s great because everyone is so lovely and friendly ALL the time. It makes this such a lovely place to work.
Last week we went on our “Journey” conference which was brilliant. This was total immersion into what the team I’ve joined does. It was full-on and I was challenged in so much: My attitude towards poverty, the poor, the government, politicians, my faith, my actions, the world and my life in general – just the small stuff!
So far this job has been amazing. It’s not been too difficult and it’s not been easy but I’ve loved all the ways in which I have been challenged. I love the fact that it challenges me so much that it is shaking me off my comfy foundations and making me look at the world and everyone in it with fresh eyes.
Probably the biggest challenge is the idea that life will never be the same. Living a compassion filled life HURTS and it wont stop hurting cause when it does it means that my effectiveness may come in to question. You may read this thinking it’s full on but i write all this with a huge smile on my face. It’s a GOOD hurt and its a GOOD challenge. It’s a good way to live my life….
It has been full on and i am tired – All this has left me feeling like this: