So here i am in Waterloo trainstation at 3:07am. Later this morning the last eurostar train will leave waterloo as from today onwards it will be operating out of St.Pancreas station. Why am i here? Well i am baby sitting a video wall for the morning, well untill about 7am when the others return. I was given the unenviabke task of staying here all night. Oh the joy. Thankfully Willis left his laptop here for me to play about on to keep me from suicide.
Its been along time since i did any videowall work. infact the last one was in Manchester last september of last year. It was a couple of weeks after that when i did the Alpha course and i met Ruth. Its a year. Thats quite amazing. I have now known ruth for a year and I will be marrying her which is the coolest thing ever.
In the past i thought i knew what love was. Really. I’ve had relationshipsthat i considered having a future with. I had thought of marrige before but i feel like an idiot when i remember the mindset i was in then. The thing with ruth is that she loves me completely. She knows that i’m an arrogant idiot sometimes. That i’m proud. I’m pigheaded, I’m lazy and my career prospects dont loook great and yet she loves me inspite of these things. In fact she goes one further and she loves those things anyway. To love someone so completely that you love them warts and all is such an amazing thing. It is truly awe inspiring. I feel like such a lucky git! I AM a lucky GIT.
I thank God sincerly for this. Without him life sucked. Now it RAWKS! If you dont know him you should say hello – he’s really quite cool you know.
So – am getting married to the boy of this site…and being a wife-in-training is kinda wierd. How to juggle the new dynamic of relationships with your parents, with his parents, with your girlfriends…with him – kind of gets my brain going all squishy sometimes.
Engagement is mental – one of the biggest life changes you are ever going to experience topped only by perhaps the prospect of being a parent…and I’m worried of being a wedding bore, I’m worried about the budget for the biggest party I’ll ever throw, I’m worried everyone is judging me for what I say or don’t say, do or think…. Plus I have this awesome fiance who has an opinion on every little detail of the wedding – which makes for daily compromises and thrashing out of stuff.
This all makes it sound like a nightmare – honestly it isn’t – there are so many brilliant things about it. I am so ridiculously excited and happy sometimes I think I might just explode as I can’t contain it – but it is an emotional rollercoaster ride!
We are a third of the way through now – March 8th starting to loom bigger and bigger on the horizon. So close and yet somehow still so far!
This journey towards one-ness is crazy – but I believe the Big Man is preparing us pretty well and holding us together when things get mad.
I’m grateful to Him…and to the boy who puts up with me when I am hormonal, grumpy, petulant and selfish – no actually he more than puts up with me – he encourages and loves me like no one else ever has. Irishmark – you rock dewd!!
Wow! Another year passes. This time when I look back, I am amazed by how diffrent this year has been and how so so so much has changed. Where to start? Its been mental but all in a good way. This time last year every wednesday i was attending an Alpha Course.
It’s amazing how the dubious act of a pigeon crapping on my head would change my life in such a big way. Now I have a fiance!
I was gonna write this big long post but i dont have any writing ability today. – Maybe later.
SO the work going oni in our house that, after much deliberation, our landlord promised we would only need to be oput of our rooms for a day and no nights…..well looks like i’ll be lucky to ghet back into my room tonight!
I am not a happy boy! The workmen also managed to nearly wreck my PC even thought i placed it somwehere safe! not impressed! – Want my room back! Got work to do!
been tryng to swap out the DHTML menu tony created for the Oak Tree site but each time i do it Firefox refuses to display it and IE puts it at the top of the page despite my placing it in the excat same Div tags and not changing the div settings in the css! Arg! – And i wanted an early night – its 4am! Doh! So much for a quick 10 mins!
And tomorrow I have to face putting up with our landlord and his crew of dodgy builders coming over to start work on the house! I really aint looking forward to the morning!
I gots my Ruru back this afternoon! After having to cancel our weekend of parents meeting parents due to my crappie cold Ruth came back this afternoon. I missed her lots. She is great and no other woman comes close to her……ever!
I’ve also been playing with my camera. Was platnig with auto bracketnig and produced the following HDR image! Its based loosy on the principal of mixing 3 shots. An over exposed, under exposed and regular shot to get the best tonal range to the photo! Me likes! I did it after another Mark tipped me off for a photoshop plugin to try.
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This is getting flippin rediculous! I’ve been having bad nose bleeds sinc tuesday night! Been to A&E 3 times in 24 hours and they cant do anything. Grrr!I got a bit of a cold on Sunday. The nose bleeding started perfusley on Tuesday and just has not let up. I went to A7E on Wed eve at about 9:30 beuause it had benn on and off ALL day and it stopped when i got there so nowt they could do. Then I woke up at about 1:30am in a pool of my own blood! That was freaky. I couldnt stop the bleedso at3 am i rang Ruth and she helped me get down to A&E but again it stopped.
Got out of there by about 7:30am got home wnet to bed woke up and bang! started again. On and off all day again so decided to go to Northwichk park to see a specialist nose and ear doc. When we got there it had stopped again. Nothing they could do. Got back home and BANG! strated again! Managed to stop that one and got a good nights sleep but went to go get a drink and it started again this afternioon!
Was supposed to be going down to Devon to see Ruth’s folks! Shiiiizat
So as an engagment prezzie Ruth bought me a new Digital SLR Camera. I chose the Pentax K100d Super. I have always been a pentax boy and so i wanred to stick with them plus i wanted to be able to use the lens off my old 35mm SF7.
Its cool having a camera again and even more so it being an SLR. So its not a compact camera but Ruth has a decent compact anyway so this is gonna be used for some good stuff. – For the first few months i’ll probably bring it everywhere anyway.
Over day one i have been playing with it lots and figuring it all out. I think i hvae most of it cracked. The only thing i was never too hot on was metering correctly but its something to learn and enjot. I did that typical thing of going out to the garden and taking photos of plants to test it. I guess its the colour range that most people find in their gardens which is why people do this alot.
Saying that the oist couple of pics taken were of Ruth. Even with flash this is such a huge step above compact. The tonal range that an slr gets is far superior. Playing with aperature and depth of feild is also ace. I am a happy boy.
I jus got this bad boy last week, well on Friday. It’s the orange SPV M700. I’ve used SPV phones now for the past 3 years and they really are ace! Despite being a damn fine lookin phone this thing really comes packed with lots of great stuff, the best being in-built GPS. No More getting lost! I am very happy in an UBER geeky way!