Sad

This is my wife in her snuggie – what i thought was trashy internet-lore was a gift from from Ruth’s mum for Christmas but it has been an very VERY useful gift over the past few days.

Ice caked car this morning

Dunno which is warmer – the car or the flat!

It seems that this week my PC at home has finally given up the ghost. This is the machine that served as my main work/edit machine during my freelancing days. This machine has been a real work horse. Its been amazing. Its been abused. I am sad. For the cost of it (i built if for bout £950) it was a very very powerful machine….

pooter demise

During the week we turned it on and it has just refused to boot. I brought a proper monitor home to see what was going on and then y’day spent half the morning taking the thing apart to clean it all out but when i put it all back together i started getting a graphics error beep.

Without being sure i dont wanna ago and buy a new graphics card so it may be the end of it. I am going to ask a guy at work who is a super brain on such things to see if he’ll tak a look at it.

The reality of the situation is that a laptop woould suite us much better. It is the way technology is going. we dont wanna end up buying a lead ballon though

We will see what happens. In the mean time i will be using the laptop from work.

See when I get myself into one of those discussions where it is quite heated my instinct wants to punch the other person in then ear.

Then i realise that, that wouldn’t be right so maybe i could just give them a god thump,

then i realise that also aint a good thing to do so

maybe i could throw something across te room in anger

then i realise that that will prolly resuklt in something getting broken

then i breath…

Anger is such a fickle thing most of the time. Rarely is it ever righteous.  Today we live in a society where “Anger Management Courses” are being prescribed left right and center. I should say that its good that the issue is being identified as we have seen the results in the past decades where it has gone untreated.

Its a sad thing though that as humans we have this thing inside us that is inherently bad for us. Most times i have very been angry its been over a stupid level on a computer game, or a driver who doesn’t move off from the lights in the time I expect him to. And thats where its worst – our expectations. We  let our tempers flare wildey when they are not met. We are so quick to jump down the throat of someone quite innocent because  the have not met the, often impossible to meet, expectation that we have created.

So next time you’re a bit miffed with someone – ask yourself  if its justified.

This morning while putting on a t-shirt i managed to strain my neck somehow and its been getting worse all day. OW OW OW. I’ve strained my neck or had a crick in my neck many times befre – this sems silly in comparrisson.

The only comfoatable position is tilting my head to the right. It has been getting progressivley worse throughout the day.